In the midst of these chaos around,

My still mind ponders my heart,

What was I even thinking then,

When was I getting pushed behind,

And how did I put my trust so much,

Why did I fall in love again?

 

I was in my la la land,

Unable to draw the line in between,

“Love is trust” I believed forever,

Tried to find happiness in all small things.

 

Love is never an issue though trust is,

Yet I wonder how to love without trust.

 

I was a open book for you,

You read each page and each sentence,

You noted every important para,

Assuring you will never let it happen again.

I rewind,

My pages,

My words and sentences,

Realising you just knew where it hurts the most.

Tell me please,

Why I am suffering your karma,

Why my wounds not healing,

How could you wear a mask for so long,

When did you change chapters of your book??

 

I remember,

My innocence when I listened to your lies,

My worries when you were late,

My love for you whenever you needed.

 

It was easy for you to break me into pieces,

And never look back again,

You hurt my inner core,

And shook me up all over again.

 

I look up and seek my answers,

What was I even thinking then,

When was I getting pushed behind,

And how did I put my trust so much,

Why did I fall in love again?